Sometimes people come into your life
and you know right away that they were meant to be there,
they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson
or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be;
your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover
or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them,
you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you
and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair,
but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles
you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart.

Everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity
all occur to test the limits of the soul.

Without these small tests,
if they be events, illnesses or relationships,
life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.
Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life and successes and downfalls you experience,
they are the ones who create who you are.
Even the bad experience can be learned from...
Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart...
forgive them,
for they have helped you learn about trust
and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you,
love them back unconditionally,
not only because they love you,
but because they are teaching you to love
and opening your heart and eyes to things
you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count.
Appreciate every moment
and take from it everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before,
and actually listen,
let yourself fall in love,
break free and set your sights high.

You can make of your life anything you wish.
Create your own life and then go out and live it.

I just realized that my heart is missing a very special woman.  She is everything I ever wanted in my whole life.  She can make me smile so easy,  and the only thing I can think about day in and day out is being with her and making her happy. 

Love Changes Things and it has for me. 

I used to think that I did something wrong and there was a reason why I wasnt strong enough to keep her.  She may not realize it but even the thought of her having my child made me the happiest man in this whole world.  I knew it wasnt possible but just the thought in my head was enough to carry me through. 

I want to be a Daddy so bad and she knew that.  She does some of the most amazing things for herself and her friends.  She thinks that she has to be super dooper strong female marine all the time, which is not quite the case.  I love that she is, but she has to know that although she may be young she has a good head on her shoulders.  You know that you do and as long as you follow your heart you will succeed in anything.  The men that give you problems in your life will get theirs soon enough,  Judgement will be passed on them but not by you.  You say things to me that dont quite make sense sometimes but if I taught you nothing else in my time in your life, choose your words carefully they can heal and hurt whether you realize that or not. 

My head is a jumble of things running around in so many different directions I am reconsidering re-enlistment for a job as a DOD instructer.  I know it would put me right there to be with her.  I dont know but I have a feeling that if I were closer things would be different.  I had a revelation in my head that although I may not get to see you as often as I would like, or even talk to you as much as I want, and I know I dont get to hold you in my arms at night Deep down in my heart I know your THE ONE THAT I LOVE, and I Cant let you go.   Tonight I was sitting at home thinking to myself, I started thinking of you, and how much I love you.I would never trade you, or forsake you because there can be absolutely nothing better than you. 

I would do anything for your happiness regardless how absurd.  I am stripped down and I will go anywhere in the world to be with you.  I dont want to spend my life wondering if I would have tried a little harder and had a little more perserverance if I would again be happy in your arms.  Tonight I just realized that you were very wrong the other day when you said I would like you no matter what, that was partially true.  There are a lot of things I hate about you, but when you are in love with someone you take the Bad with Good in hopes that the Love you have will shine through.  I could spout off all day and night on how much I love you until I am blue in the face...but that isnt going to do anything, instead I am willing to spend my life proving that to be true.  I am planning on my future for myself to be happy, although I am planning it without you in it...I would finally get my happily ever after if you were there with me.  I am not content with just fine I want extraordinary, you are Amazing,  You have all the attributes in a woman that will complete me.  Even though you say this was from a long time ago I cant help but be a little perplexed by your words in a previous statement:  

"I normally don't open up to someone that early in a relationship. But, I have this connection with him that I can't explain. Its like I don't know. I never felt this connection with anyone else in my life...not T, not S, not anyone, but G. He is so special to me."  KLG - 04/08